Feel Me

Sometimes, you wish everything was over.

Sometimes, you wish to dissapear, no more, no less.

Feeling down and the sorrow is all around you, like the air you´re breathing.

How come we get to this?

When we took the detour to this forgotten road in life?

When we forgot how to feel...how to be happy...how to smile?

Where is that little boy with his eyes fill with joy?

Where did I hide him?

Why doesn´t he dare to come out again?

I hate to feel this way.

But I´ve forgotten how to be different.

When I was younger, all I wanna was to be different, special...

But life has teach me that I´m just like everybody else, ordinary, common, unappreciated.

All I see is dispair, disgrace, injustice for all, for me.

All I see is how people tread on your dreams, your ideas, your work, everything you have fought to.

Can I find a way out?

Can I?

Is there any?

Looking at this monitor, writing these words from within....

is all I have right now.

And the worst part is that... I don´t even care.....

River City

Writing

Thinking

Suffering

Why am I doing this?

Why am I such and idiot?

Maybe because I’m broken inside

Really deep

Too deep

Feeling what’s right or wrong

But don’t realize it

Don’t believe it

Suffering

But there’s no stop

Broken inside

Hurt inside

But don’t know how

Don’t know whom

Firing this into this sheet

Is the only way

I can think on it

I can speak about it

“Like a face that likes to speak

When all I knew was how to fight”

I still smell the guilt

I still smell the smoke

And what’s does it mean?

Why it bothers me so much?

After all it’s my life

Or maybe it’s my life

What’s causing me this.

My poor twisted head

Wasting my time

Wasting my life

Wasting my hate

Wasting me.

Castillo

Lagrimas surgen de mi alma
Nunca busque el perdón
Lo que hice, lo hice por mi
Sin embargo, mi alma se parte en dos

Tristeza invade mi mente,
Mi alma.
Nunca la busque,
Pero ella me ha encontrado nuevamente.
La felicidad se evapora
Como el agua en el desierto.

No soy todo lo que se desea,
Pero es mi vida.
Tome todo a la ligera,
He recibido los golpes
Y ellos hacen sangrar mi alma.

Pagando el precio de ser como soy,
Un precio demasiado alto,
Por demasiado tiempo.
Solo estoy parado en la cima de la montaña,
Solo para caer al precipio de nuevo…
Y empezar otra vez
Para caer una vez mas

Felicidad, parece no durar,
Me condena a sentirme marchito una vez mas.
La felicidad desaparece tan rápido,
Las sombras ganan terreno,
Siempre lo hacen

Mi castillo se derrumba,
Me abrirías el tuyo?
Para hallar un lugar para esconderme
Hasta que pase la tormenta
O solo eres otro con el castillo de cristal a punto de caer

Estoy de nuevo donde empecé
Puedo pasar dentro
Esta frio aquí fuera
Mientras la niebla me rodea
O quedaré solo nuevamente…

Sick & Tired

Sick and tired

Forgotten by the world

I don´t even know how it´s to live

Sucking this life out from the air

Tired of pushing forward the wheel

I´m in this dark place..

Seeing the darkness

Smelling the fear

Hearing the dead silence of my head

Is anybody there?

Anything?

Silence of death is all around

Trying to get my head up off the sorrow sea

But it´s too late

I´m drawning in pain, sorrow and regret…

I hit the lights in these dark sets

But the dark is all over me again….

Dark night

Dark heart

Dead head.